Hey y'all I will be back tomorrow w/ a new post but for today I have Amanda from Knock On Wood Blog taking over! Go say "Hey girl hey!".
And then there are all of the questions that race through my mind:
What if I'm not a good parent?
Will I get frustrated and angry to easily?
How will childrearing affect my anxiety and depression?
How will we afford a child?
What if the stress of childrearing strains my marriage?
Will the cats accidentally suffocate a baby?
What if Bear paws the baby?
What will we have to give up?
How do we know when/if we're really ready?
Will I even be able to conceive?
Hubs and I have had a few conversations about having a baby, but nothing super serious yet. We agreed that IF we decide to reproduce, we will only have ONE child. I'm not sure I could handle more. We agreed that discipline will be split as equally as possible. We agreed that our child will not watch snarky Disney Channel TV shows. We agreed that our child will be well-behaved or face consequences. The only things we don't agree on from our conversations so far is our preferred gender. I would want a girl and he wants a boy.
It will be a few years before we really start thinking seriously about having a child. And every time the subject comes up in conversation (because we all know it does), I get the "You're not getting any younger," comment. Yes, I know I'm almost 30. In fact, I'll be 29 in August. Yes, I know it's harder to conceive after 30. Yes, I know how old I might be when a possible child of mine starts college. But wouldn't you rather me wait until I know for sure my husband and I are ready in every possible way to raise a child, than to just pop one out all willy nilly because you think it's time?
So it may or may not happen for us. But you know what? I am determined to be happy either way.